My Last Fine Art Shoot of 2020

Where do I start with this beautiful day?

Between surgeries and the whole world turning bottom up, this was my first proper Fine Art shoot of 2020. Two weeks (I believe) of planning and making props. I lost sensation at my fingertips from the hot glue gun for making the flowers. But it was so glorious. I felt so much love for every person who helped make this come true.

The images came to me while I was visiting Tokyo. I was in my partner’s apartment, sketching things out. Somehow, this image landed on the page. As soon as it did I became emotional, knowing that it encapsulated my year.

This year especially, I found myself frustrated over and over with what I felt were limitations. One being a spontaneous 7cm blood clot in my ovaries, which needed emergency surgery as well as months of convalescence. It compounded the constant feelings I had to be somewhere else, and sometimes even be someone else. Unable to leave my home for several months this year taught me something though, and this quote that I love tells it well.

“I felt in need of a great pilgrimage, so I sat still for three days”.